Nice post. ... What's the janitor story?I did leave. Granger got fired, and so did his deputy, Peter, who was my direct editor for 14 years. So I quit. My last Esquire story is in Granger's last issue, which is May. I'm not the only writer who's leaving, but I'll let them make their own announcements.
Ragu, when Granger inherited Esquire it was losing lots of money. 2008 and 2009 were scary years, too. But Esquire has been turning a considerable profit lately. Last year was second only to two years ago, I believe. It's making millions annually. That's why that CJR piece is framed the way it is: His firing doesn't really make sense, rationally speaking. We had meetings in the fall about what we were going to do for the next couple of years, and if I'm sad about anything, it's that I won't get to read some of the stories, the big year-long projects, that were assigned. There were all sorts of ambitious plans afoot.
You're right that there was constant pressure on Granger to make cuts, but he insulated us from most of them. We were paid well, and we were never told "no" to a story because of money. (When Granger stood up to Apple on behalf of Andy Langer however many years ago, that engendered more loyalty from us than anything else he might have done. We knew he had our backs, and for writers, that's such a huge thing to know.) He was really a dream boss, and Peter is a dream editor. I was lucky to work for them both for as long as I did. I've said this on Twitter, but really, I feel like no matter what happens now, I can't really complain about anything. I wanted to work for Esquire more than anywhere else, and because a janitor stopped me when I was walking out the door back in 2001, I got to work there for longer than I ever imagined. For a small-town Canadian kid, that's blessed beyond blessed.
A couple of weeks ago, we had a big farewell party for Granger—even Jim Nelson from GQ came, which I thought was a very classy gesture—and the next night his writers took him out for a steak. (Scott Raab paid for all of us, which he'd be mad at me for mentioning, but I think it says something important.) We laughed and cried and hugged. We're proud of what we did. Now it's time for some of us to do something else.
Nice post. ... What's the janitor story?
It's a long story I've told too many times, but basically, when I was on the baseball beat for the National Post, I went into the Esquire office cold and tried to meet with Granger. After a long conversation with security, I was roundly rejected. Walking out, a janitor stopped me. He'd overheard the conversation and told me I should try this guy Andy Ward instead. I should call him. So I did. Andy agreed to meet me, and that was the start. That janitor changed my life, and I suspect he has no idea what he did for me. Esquire moved from that building before I started working there. Never saw him again. He's like the career version of a guardian angel.
It's a long story I've told too many times, but basically, when I was on the baseball beat for the National Post, I went into the Esquire office cold and tried to meet with Granger. After a long conversation with security, I was roundly rejected. Walking out, a janitor stopped me. He'd overheard the conversation and told me I should try this guy Andy Ward instead. I should call him. So I did. Andy agreed to meet me, and that was the start. That janitor changed my life, and I suspect he has no idea what he did for me. Esquire moved from that building before I started working there. Never saw him again. He's like the career version of a guardian angel.
Gay Talese would call bull**** on this story.
I wouldn't blame him.
I sweat thinking about it—just how naive I was. Like, why would Granger want to see me? Without an appointment? What was I thinking? And after the janitor stopped me, I went back to the security guard and asked if I could call Andy. He answered, I explained who I was and that I'd love to meet him (hadn't heard his name until three minutes earlier), he asked me when I was going to be in town, and I was like, I'm in your lobby. He was like, "Um...."
The worst part is, after I went up—he let me up!—I made him read my clips in front of me. He was like, "I'll read them later," and I said, "No, I want you to read them now." So he sat there and read them while I watched him reading, total silence. In my head, I just wanted to know if there was any hope—because if there was none, then I wanted to move on with my life. I was fixated on getting some direction. But making the guy who was nice enough to let me into his office read my clips in front of me... I want to crawl into a hole remembering it. Thank God for the stupidity of youth, because I'd never even walk in the door today.
It's a good story.
And, only a young, naive guy could have gotten away with it.
The best public speaker I've ever known was a kid in grade school who was too dumb to realize he should be nervous. He was invincible to reason. That day at Esquire, I was him. I was too blinded by desire, and too unaware of the protocol, to know that I was being a total idiot. I really would never dream of doing that today. I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. Probably says something about the ceiling that pride puts on you.
I used to coach little league, and I had a pitcher like that. Kid never got nervous, because I don't think he was ever aware of the situation -- how many runners were on base, how many out, what the count was. It was always a disaster though when the ball was hit back to him. He had no idea where to throw it.
For fun, I just looked up Andy Ward. He was pretty young himself when you met him, and not a grizzled veteran. Not sure if that helped him feel an affinity for you or not.
I've heard similar stories. When you have nothing to lose, why not. The worst that can happen is you get shot down.
I also always compare a job search to dating. God knows I had no right asking out my now wife.
The best public speaker I've ever known was a kid in grade school who was too dumb to realize he should be nervous. He was invincible to reason. That day at Esquire, I was him. I was too blinded by desire, and too unaware of the protocol, to know that I was being a total idiot. I really would never dream of doing that today. I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. Probably says something about the ceiling that pride puts on you.