A little introspection

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Moddies, webby, I'm not sure if this belongs here or Journalism Topics. If I posted this in the wrong forum, feel free to move it.

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Generally, I'm not one for introspection or sentimentality. But I thought I'd share the epiphany I just experienced.

I was writing at Yankee Stadium tonight. I got there late and my credential wasn't ready, so I had to wait. When I finally got into the park, I raced to the clubhouse to do interviews. After I finished, I went into the press room only to find that I didn't have a seat in the press box and was relegated to the dungeon-esque press room.

Okay, fine. There are sets around me and I have to write, anyway.

Sometime around 10 P.M., I try to go to baseball-reference.com to check on stats and can't access the site. I try to access Google and its down. The wireless internet at the Stadium had died. I can't file. I hit refresh once, twice, a hundred times. Nothing. I have clumps of hair in my hands because pulling my hair out seems to be a better option than drop-kicking my laptop.

After the game, I trudge into the post-game presser and clubhouse, asking halfhearted questions because I was too focused on a crappy internet connection.

I finish what I'm doing and I begin to walk out the Stadium. And that's where I saw my salvation: A clump of dirt.

There was nothing remarkable about it. It's the same clump of dirt that's found in ballparks from Anchorage to Ottawa to Boston and to New York. Nothing special about it at all.

Then I began to think. I was lucky enough to walk the same pathway as Ruth, DiMaggio, Gehrig, Mantle, Maris, Ford, Berra, Reggie, Jeter, ARod, Oscar Gamble, Chad Curtis and Mel Hall. Okay, maybe not the last three. But you get my drift.

My mind wandered from the legends to family. My grandfather was born and raised in Hell's Kitchen, a Yankees fan. A catcher, 5'4 by 5'4, he wasn't good enough to do more than play in adult leagues. His biggest contribution to baseball in the City of New York was that he brought Little League to the borough of Queens. He raised his clan to root for the Yankees, including my pops.

I thought about my old man. Another catcher, 5'8 and 160 pounds, he was good enough to play at the high school level. For whatever reason, be it he wasn't big enough or strong enough or couldn't hit a jockey's weight, a lifelong baseball junkie wasn't blessed with the ability to live out his childhood dream.

I stopped. Here I am, an almost funny kid with a laptop, able to do something that my father and grandfather and uncles and cousins and friends could only dream of. While they toil at jobs that don't provide any excitement, I'm lucky enough to walk into the Yankees clubhouse and say I'm doing my job.

And I began to feel bad because I didn't enjoy it. I didn't soak up the atmosphere. I stepped onto the Yankee Stadium grass, looking to talk to a couple players standing around the batting cage. I could have stopped and took a second to look around and realize how good I have it. Tomorrow, I'm back at the Stadium. I guarantee you that I will take time out to enjoy myself and to recognize what I could be doing.

I implore you to sit back and really think about how cool our jobs are. I know not every park is Yankee Stadium. Not every rink is Maple Leaf Gardens or the Montreal Forum. Not every football stadium is Lambeau Field. Not every basketball court is Madison Square Garden. But the venue is irrelevant. We're fortunate enough to go into places than fans only dream of. For as tough as we make our jobs out to be, and yeah, sometimes they really suck, it's certainly a lot better than a 9-to-5 office job.
 
I wish I could find something as uplifting while I'm flying a desk every night.
 
When I heard talk of the BoSox and the Yanks getting new stadiums a few years back I flew out there to take them in. Called my dad while watching the Yankees from about 16 rows from the field. Awesome. Positively Awesome. Same at Fenway. Glad I got there before they bastardized the Green Monster. The next year, me and pop spent a week in Chi-town, saw a couple of Cubs games from the bleachers (of course) and took in a game on the southside - Priceless. Don't know if I'd say the same about the newer parks.....
 
When Norm MacLean is stealing your stuff, just think: <i>"Hey, this guy also stole from Red Smith, **** Young...."</i>
 
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Good stuff HB. I get that same feeling everytime I wind around the bowels of stadium heading toward clubhouse.

Walking down the tunnel towards dugout each time is a mystical event - specially during day when you see that bright sun light at end of dark tunnel.

Never get the same feeling at Shea - with the peeling paint, odor of low tide and smell of jet fuel.
 
Weird. I don't get that feeling when I talk to the stand-off-ish, fat manager/DH of the senior baseball team I cover at a field with no fences to keep me or the fans out after a game.
 
Boom_70 said:
Good stuff HB. I get that same feeling everytime I wind around the bowels of stadium heading toward clubhouse.

Walking down the tunnel towards dugout each time is a mystical event - specially during day when you see that bright sun light at end of dark tunnel.

Never get the same feeling at Shea - with the peeling paint, odor of low tide and smell of jet fuel.

And lest we forget the sounds of Jay Horwitz.
 
Boom_70 said:
Good stuff HB. I get that same feeling everytime I wind around the bowels of stadium heading toward clubhouse.

Walking down the tunnel towards dugout each time is a mystical event - specially during day when you see that bright sun light at end of dark tunnel.

Never get the same feeling at Shea - with the peeling paint, odor of low tide and smell of jet fuel.

What <i>is</i> that smell at Shea? And will they feature the same non-working elevator at the new park?
 
Smasher_Sloan said:
Boom_70 said:
Good stuff HB. I get that same feeling everytime I wind around the bowels of stadium heading toward clubhouse.

Walking down the tunnel towards dugout each time is a mystical event - specially during day when you see that bright sun light at end of dark tunnel.

Never get the same feeling at Shea - with the peeling paint, odor of low tide and smell of jet fuel.

What <i>is</i> that smell at Shea? And will they feature the same non-working elevator at the new park?

Don't know what the smell is but whatever you do don't eat the peeling paint in the press box. I hear it is lead based. You will end up with brain damage.
 
I had a similar epiphany yesterday when I was giving a softball teammate a ride home from our game and I was prattling on about how today was going to suck because I was likely looking at a 15-hour day.

As I looked at him, I realized I was saying all this to a guy who has been at various times in his life homeless, addicted to crack, an alcoholic and jobless. He now works with some construction company and still makes some bad choices, but I could only imagine what a **** he must have thought I was.

I followed it up by saying, "Hey, my worst day is still pretty damn good. I get paid to watch baseball." He then went into a five-minute monologue about how he loves baseball -- at any level -- and how he doesn't think about drugs, alcohol or the bad stuff he's done in his life when he watches it.

Made me appreciate my long day today.
 
nybluepepper said:
I had a similar epiphany yesterday when I was giving a softball teammate a ride home from our game and I was prattling on about how today was going to suck because I was likely looking at a 15-hour day.

As I looked at him, I realized I was saying all this to a guy who has been at various times in his life homeless, addicted to crack, an alcoholic and jobless. He now works with some construction company and still makes some bad choices, but I could only imagine what a **** he must have thought I was.

I followed it up by saying, "Hey, my worst day is still pretty damn good. I get paid to watch baseball." He then went into a five-minute monologue about how he loves baseball -- at any level -- and how he doesn't think about drugs, alcohol or the bad stuff he's done in his life when he watches it.

Made me appreciate my long day today.

Were you driving Dwight Gooden?
 
Best part of the job -- meeting people and seeing places and attending events that we would otherwise never get near.

I ran with the bulls once in Pamplona for a story, and when I looked over my shoulder, I swear to God I was thinking, I'm the only dude here getting paid to take that bull's horn up my ass.
 
hb


glad to see you're getting it, my friend. i feel like i've beaten the system. haven't really worked a day in my life. what a blessing.

i've never taken it for granted. 8)
 
HB is right, we don't look around enough.

I've been doing that at the last few big events I've been at. Because you don't know if you'll ever be back, so enjoy it.
 
JBHawkEye said:
HB is right, we don't look around enough.

I've been doing that at the last few big events I've been at. Because you don't know if you'll ever be back, so enjoy it.

If HB starts telling us the Yankees are October then we'll start to worry.

HB some writers have told me that when they take a leak in the Yankee Stadium press room they feel like Mel Allen is looking over their shoulder. Have you had this vision yet?
 
I've covered NFL camps and games before and a bunch of other stuff, but I didn't get that same feeling (the one HB) is talking about until this year at Spring Training.

I had to go back to Podunk and the minors, but I felt like the guy who got a cup of coffee in the bigs. It's something I'll hopefully be able to tell the kids and grandkids someday.
 

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