An epiphany

This is sort of a spinoff of the "If The Higher Religious Entity" thread...

I grew up in an uberCatholic household. My mom had crosses hanging in every room of the house. She and my dad dragged us to Mass every Sunday; they had me serve as an alter boy and enrolled me in Catholic schools.

While talking to a friend today, I finally realized something. Or maybe finally came to grips with the fact that I don't believe and that I never believed.

 

Details?

 

Let me be the first to say congratulations.

 

How has this epiphany changed you?

 

Let me be the first to say God will never give up on you.

 

I was chatting with a friend and it just dawned on me that I didn't believe. I realized that I had wasted time going to Mass because I went through the motions. Stand up. Sit down. Kneel. Rinse, wash and repeat every Sunday.

I thought I would be sad or angry. I wasn't. I felt nothing.

 

I never should have given you that book.

 

So HB, would you describe yourself as an atheist? Agnostic? Deist but not Christian? Christian but not Catholic?

 

There were worse places to be than in church. Don't fret. You may have the rest of your life to realize the mistake you're making now.
Or, the next 10 seconds.

 

The Islanders, however, will.

 

Didn't believe in God or in Catholicism?

 

HB, been there, done that. Have since realized it is OK to believe in the HRE, without believing in organized religion, which is bunk.